When am i gonna stop feeling guilty about the deat of my honey?

Hi Loops, you're hurting and you're angry, i can understand that but blaming yourself will only make your grief more profound and effect you longer than it should. We all love our pets, they become our family and sometimes, mean more to us than that although non pet lovers will never understand that. You loved her deeply and she loved you, would she want you to be so grief stricken that you can't move on? I really don't think so. You gave her all your love and attention and couldn't have done more for her than you did. Listen Loops, this isn't about money, its about a higher power we know nothing about, something we can never understand. God gave her to you to love and cherish and, in honeys case, no one said it was forever. She was desperately ill Loops, she would NOT have recovered from what she had, a million pounds would not have saved her. It was her time, we all have a time to go and that time was hers. I know it wasn't a nice way to lose her but when our times up, its up! Some pets are killed by cars, horribly injured and some lose their little lives at the hands of their ' owners ', beaten and starved to death. Honey had the best of the best and had a great life with you Loops, you know it and she knew it. You will see her again one day, when your times up! Until then, be pleased that you gave her your all, that she was happy and loved and well cared for and concentrate on your existing pets, give them the love you gave her and spare a thought for their feelings too, they've lost their friend just as you have. Be good to yourself and take care x A tiny flower, lent not given, to bud on earth and bloom in heaven.